Wednesday, February 27, 2002

Dalam salah satu sessi angan-angan karut tahap lampau, aku terfikir akulah inventor yang mencipta kereta terbang tanpa menggunakan kipas. Sebaliknya harness potential graviti tapi negate pada suatu tahap keseimbangan 1 meter dari aras tanah.

Kemudian aku telah diinterview oleh surat khabar:

Surat khabar: Bagaimanakah anda mendapat ilham untuk mencipta kereta terbang?

Aku: Saya mendapat ilham untuk mencipta kereta terbang sebab saya selalu jam pagi-pagi bawak kereta.

SK: Saya rasa orang lain pun jam pagi-pagi?

Aku: Ye ke? Dahtu kenapa diorang tak pernah nak buat kereta terbang? Saya memang dapat ilham sebab jam.

SK: Pelik.

Aku: Engkau la pelik.

p/s: ops ada meeting la... tak sempat nak habis cerita.

*sambungan lepas meeting ->

SK: Maksud saya pelik anda dapat ilham sebab jam. Exactly macamana terbentuk ilham tu sebab jam?

Aku: Macam ni. Satu pagi saya bawak kereta macam biasa. Sampai kat satu jalan, kereta semua tetiba perlahan... pastu brek. Saya pun perlahan dan brek. Jadi jamlah saya di situ. Dalam setengah jam merangkak-rangkak... dan mula rasa annoying gila jam ni... saya pun terfikir, "Kalau buat kereta terbang ni bagus ni, dapat elak jam". Jadi di situlah idea saya timbul dalam membuat kereta terbang.

SK: Soalan seterusnya errr.... betulke awak buat kereta terbang? (kerut-kerut)

Aku: Abis tu engkau?

SK: Tidakla... hehe tapi kereta terbang awak terbang 1 meter je dari tanah? Macamana boleh elak jam?

Aku: Itu belum version elak jam lagi... itu version kereta tak perlu tayar. Version elak jam aku tengah study lagi cara-cara hendak mengelak jam. Kengkadang kita boleh elak jam kalau kita lalu ikut kawasan-kawasan perumahan.

SK: errr... ok...

Aku: Persoalan sekarangnya, sapa yang reka jam pagi-pagi ni?

SK: (bangun dan melarikan diri)

Tuesday, February 26, 2002

Have people lost their confidence in the local universities? I certainly have, a long time ago. Look at the workforce.

And now we are producing more SPM "Top-Scorers". Does this actually mean we have more bright students? Probably.

or probably ramai yang pandai jawab kertas soalan (tips menjawab, format menjawab, soalan ramalan, buku latihan, pattern past year questions). Ilmu untuk lulus periksa.

Call me pessimistic, but I'm writing out of concern.

Are we producing thinkers? Seldomly.

Gradually, the local universities will not be attracting intellectuals and potentials to earn their recognition there, if the universities produce people lacking confidence in their knowledge.

Aku nak tukar bank aku. Tak tahan dah dengan BCB. Aku rasa BCB je yang takde kerusi dan pakai sistem no giliran.

objectively, aku taknak pergi bank dan berdiri setengah jam.

Probably tukar ke maybank.

Monday, February 25, 2002

Actually, kita selalu dengar orang berkata-kata pasal anjakan paradigma atau paradigm shift. I think sometimes it is just loosely used. Satu contoh baik dari buku steven covey mengenai paradigm shift:

Bayangkan anda dalam LRT hendak pergi suatu tempat. Tiba di suatu perhentian, naik seorang lelaki dengan tiga orang anaknya. Lelaki tersebut duduk di sebelah anda. Dalam perjalanan, anak-anak lelaki ni bising dan unruly dalam LRT. Pekik memekik, berlari sana sini, kacau penumpang lain. Dan ayah budak-budak tu nampaknya biarkan saja walaupun kelihatan ramai orang yang agak annoyed dengan tingah laku diaorang.

Dalam hati anda kata, apa punya bapak tak reti jaga anak... namun muka lelaki tu selamba je. Anda rasa geram dengan tingkah laku lelaki tersebut, dan rasa bertanggungjawab menegurnya.

Lelaki tu menjawab teguran anda dengan nada flat,"Baru je balik dari hospital, mak budak-budak ni baru meninggal. Tak tahu nak fikir apa, tak tahu macamana budak-budak ni menerima" dan terus alih pandangan ke luar.

dari geram ke simpati.

Monday, February 18, 2002

Selepas beberapa jam mengadakan mental session pencabutan gigi dan bagaimana aku akan melepasi proses tersebut, maka aku pun terus ke klinik gigi. Sebelum sampai, aku try marah kat gigi aku dan betapa perlunya engkau dibuang dari gusi aku. Sort of worked. That's why aku masuk ke klinik gigi muka agak nasty.

Lepas check in, aku pun duduk dan look for reading material untuk lepak-lepak jap sebelum doktor panggil. Dang! Doktor panggil dah, tah panas pun bontot duduk.

Kali ni doktor lain, doktor muda. So dia tanya what I did for a living, kawin ke belum... sort of relaxing. Tahu-tahu tengah borak-borak, ada jarum dok terhulur-hulur dalam mulut. This doctor is much better than the last one hahaha....

I accepted the insertion with no problems at all. then borak lagi... sambil dok check-check gigi lain. So dia jumpa lubang lagi...

"You nak I tampal ke gigi ni? It's ok jugak sementara tunggu bius tu take effect... sejam lepas bius paling kebas, you langsung takkan rasa apa"

I liked the idea. eventually he serviced my other tooth... and found lagi 3 lubang kecik... dan dia service lagi. I told him, "I hesitate a lot to go to a dentist... so sebabkan saya dah kat sini... saya taknak ada outstanding task kat mulut saya dah lepas ni... tampal je semua, kalau tidak I tunggu dia sakit baru terhegeh-hegeh nak datang sini"

So lepas dia habis fill up gigi-gigi aku yang lain. Dia pun test, nak cabut gigi aku... dia ketuk dengan something and I didn't feel a thing. So dia pun cabutlah... and also geraham bongsu aku pun rosak... so aku mintak dia cabut jugak... in fact, geraham bongsu takde fungsi dia cakap. Rasa sedap pulak cabut gigi.

He told me that my teeth kurang calcium, cepat rosak. Kind of funny, cause I'm a dairy product freak. So i needed more than just brushing, and now those dental advertisements made sense.

I took back both of my tooth, just to study it. Then aku terperasan ada sedikit daging gusi aku melekat kat salah satu gigi. This is surely gonna hurt bila bius ni dah habis.

And so it did... sambil aku dok baca buku "The Lord of the Rings"... just to be somewhere in fantasy land to distract my mind dari pedih ni.

Sunday, February 17, 2002

I overdid again, it's 6 am and still very much wide awake. Smoking pulak tu! Dang, I really have to drop this bad habit. Cabut gigi pun seram, apa lagi kena penyakit pelik-pelik.

Sebenarnya minggu lepas, aku pergi dentist. Aku ada lubang besar maut kat gigi geraham aku, disebabkan filling dia tertanggal. So it worsens sebab memang aku fobia dengan dentist untuk pergi rawat dengan segera. So sekarang, aku decide untuk cabut je gigi tu, takde harapan dah nak tampal.

Masa kat dentist tu, aku pun lepak la kat kerusi patient dengan lampu cerah menghala kat muka aku, tunggu doktor nak buat apa-apa. Dia check2 pastu setuju ngan aku pasal gigi tu kena cabut dah. Maka dia pun mengambil jarum suntikan saiz gajah, prepare-prepare ngan assistant dia... cari alat2 lain... pergi meja jap... assistant dia mekap mekap pulak pergh lama gila rasa... dahlah tengah menggelabah ni, jantung berdegup kuat... doktor ni saje je ke?

So lepas siap semua, dia pun kata, "Ok, tahan sikit ye...". "Ok... ", jawab aku. Dia pun cucuklah dua kali kat gusi aku. Aku masuk state separa maya nak tahan sakit. Pastu dia tinggalkan jap nak bagi bius tu in effect.

Lepas tu dia pun kata nak test cabut, ambik playar dia, genggam gigi aku... "hmmmm.... agak sakit", aku cakap. So dia kata nak bius lagi..."Ok", jawab aku lagi. Cucuk lagi 3 kali.... pastu dia try lagi... lagi sekali aku rasa sakit. So dia kata kat aku,

"Mungkin saraf dah expose.... saya kena bius direct ke dalam saraf yang expose tu"

Aku teringat sengat aku cucuk-cucuk gigi aku terkena tempat yang sensitif tu, melompat... apa lagi kena cucuk dengan jarum terus masuk? So aku tanya dia,

"Are you sure?"

"A'ha"

"Apa option lain saya ada?"

"Takde"

Aku mula nak negotiate dengan doktor tu: "Kalau saya tak jadi cabut gigi ni takpe ke?"

"Hmm... dia sakit macam dulu la"

"I could tolerate that" (yeah right)

"Apa awak takut, patient saya yang perempuan boleh tahan..." sambil sengih kat aku.

(damn he's good)

"Ok... buat je doktor", pergh tahan je la cakap hati aku.

Dia pun cari tempat yang saraf expose tu nak cucuk, aku pejam mata, pegang kerusi kuat-kuat takut tersentap kuat ke....

tetiba dia cakap, "hmmm... tak expose ni, akar ni kena infection... ambik antibiotik dulu... datang balik lepas 3 hari untuk cabut"

"Serious?", aku tanya dia.

Dia angguk. That time, rasa lega sikit. Today, the wait is killing me... sebab esok jumpa dia lagi!!!!

O wow.... what to expect tomorrow?

If you bet I was joking on the job opening, you bet right. I won't post here. Some people did actually sent me e-mail. But I do have plans to secretly search for the kind of talents.

Thursday, February 14, 2002

I'm back from vacation/business trip there's no vacation only trips for me now.

I'm finalizing an agreement with a client... so don't bear with me. give me a bear hug instead, it's much cozy that way. Things are quite rough, and free time are sporadic.

I'll blog if I can, I'll answer your e-mails when I'm free, sorry for that though.

I've been attracting serious people to my blog due to my recent writings.

So the demographics are perfect for my announcement: I'm opening job positions at my company. Write to me if you know any good software coders, or yourself.

I will not look much at your degree, coders are not taught at school nor are they spoon fed. Also has to be vocal in expression, I don't want sheepish people.

Enough.

Friday, February 08, 2002

The Evolution Deceit

Most of the people who pioneered modern science believed in the existence of God; and while studying science, they sought to discover the universe God has created and to perceive His laws and the details in His creation. Astronomers such as Leonardo da Vinci, Copernicus, Keppler, and Galileo; the father of paleontology, Cuvier; the pioneer of botany and zoology, Linnaeus; and Isaac Newton, who is referred to as the "greatest scientist who ever lived", all studied science believing not only in the existence of God but also that the whole universe came into being as a result of His creation6 Albert Einstein, considered to be the greatest genius of our age, was another devout scientist who believed in God and stated thus; "I cannot conceive of a genuine scientist without that profound faith. The situation may be expressed by an image: science without religion is lame."7
One of the founders of modern physics, German physician Max Planck said: "Anybody who has been seriously engaged in scientific work of any kind realizes that over the entrance to the gates of the temple of science are written the words: Ye must have faith. It is a quality which the scientist cannot dispense with."8

apa kata free thinkers? Cehhhhhh..... baru belajar Fizik Tingkatan Lima dah claim to be a free thinker.. booooohoooo

Sleep.
Sleep will not come, to this tired body now
Peace will not come, to this aching heart.

Aku dan masalah tidur aku.

Bini aku suruh aku kira kambing. Tapi aku terbilang kambing tu dekat 3000 tak tidur-tidur lagi. Mana sepatutnya sampai banyak tu nak tidur. Patut bilang 10 terus tertidur dah la. So aku try benda lain.

Aku lompat dari kapalterbang dan jatuh ke satu tempat yang dalam sangat tak sampai-sampai. Jadinya, aku tak sampai-sampai jugak, dan tak tidur jugak. Konon nak buat lompat sampai tertidur atau masuk ke alam mimpi. Dammit, that didn't work either.

Dulu bila nak tidur, wajib baca buku, tapi kalau buku baru, tunggu habis la baru tidur. Tapi method paling best nak tidur.

Note: Aku takkan ambik sleeping pills.

p/s: pagi tadi masa bini aku kejut aku, aku terngigau jawab "Sekejap, 50% lagi". Yep, aku tengah download whitepaper audio video streaming dalam mimpi, baru aku ingat.

Apa cerita mensa malaysia? I thought it was a club for people with high Intelligent Quotient Scores?
Aktiviti mensa malaysia: main catur, treasure hunt, wine tasting (test arak). NTAHAPAHAPANTAH. Aktiviti orang pandai la tu kononnya. Typical. Yang wine tasting tu apa kejadah kena mengena dengan IQ tinggi? Itu perlukan kita kapir atau tak beriman je tu.

Pastu sikit-sikit fee. Pergi meeting pun mintak fee.

hmmmm tak berapa pandai kot dieorang ni, pandai jawab puzzle je kot.

ops, sorry for the late night dissin. I myself had no intelligent activity to do at this moment.

Thursday, February 07, 2002

Aku terjumpa sourcode ni kat satu guestbook website.

Program for life

begin
while pulse > 0
eat:
sleep:
work:
screw:
if baby
spawn(new)
if pulse = 0
goto die:
-- bad programming but reads better !

end while

die:
clear memory
end

heh, i thought it was funny.

Wednesday, February 06, 2002

Do you believe in The Theory of Evolution? Here's an excerpt from a website:

In his book "Evolution: A Theory in Crisis," about the invalidity of the theory of evolution, renowned molecular biologist Prof. Michael Denton explains the unreasonable conviction of Darwinists:

To the skeptic, the proposition that the genetic programmes of higher organisms, consisting of something close to a thousand million bits of information, equivalent to the sequence of letters in a small library of one thousand volumes, containing in encoded form countless thousands of intricate algorithms controlling, specifying, and ordering the growth and development of billions and billions of cells into the form of a complex organism, were composed by a purely random process is simply AN AFFRONT TO REASON. BUT TO THE DARWINIST, THE IDEA IS ACCEPTED WITHOUT A RIPPLE OF DOUBT - THE PARADIGM TAKES PRECEDENCE!

my comment:
visit http://www.harunyahya.com to see the documentary online (under videos). Also check the documentary, The Miracles of the Quran, science as explained by the Al-Quran 1400 years ago.

Blueshades, pemikiran aku atau aku sendiri tidaklah best mana. aku cuma mengexposekan diri kepada maklumat, sesuatu yang semua orang boleh buat kalau dia nak atau kalau hati dia membenarkan. Sebab ada orang, kalau isu Islam sikit... terus prejudis atau blok terus. Tu masalah hati diala tu, mungkin sebab dia tak jaga makan, hati jadi gelap. Effectnya, benda simple pun tak nampak.

Soalan:
Kenapa kita harus ambil Islam sebagai suatu cara hidup? (ini pun kena tanya)

Salah satu jawapan dari jumlah infinite jawapan-jawapan:
Dunia penuh dengan sorrow untuk kita. Kita takut terlalu banyak sangat benda di atas dunia ni. Dan Islamlah yang menjanjikan kedamaian. Apakah sorrow-sorrow itu?

Antaranya:-
1. Muda sebelum tua
2. Kaya sebelum miskin
3. Sihat sebelum sakit
4. Hidup sebelum mati

Jikalau kita seorang muslim, dan mempergunakan masa-masa ini mengikut ajaran Islam, keempat-empat masa ini bukanlah sesuatu yang menjadi sorrow.

Tuesday, February 05, 2002

Freaked out with reality.
Stumbling upon the truth.

So tied in with deception.
Been manipulated for years.

So stupid and naive.
Ignorance was bliss.

and so ignorant and too proud to embrace now.
idiotic rules.

What has been amiss in your life?